I am really not great at this whole blogging thing. So instead of trying to back track too much... I will make a list of what has happened in the past well 7 months.
Don't mind the run-ons and the extremely long paragraphs!
-At 37 weeks I had my sweet baby boy Timothy Carter Coles born on December 22, 2011 at 18:57 weighing 6 pds 15 ounces and 20 inches long. My water broke at 6:30am, I woke up feeling like I needed to use the bathroom and when I rolled over in bed. All of sudden there was a sudden rush of fluids. I thought I pee..ed my pants! ha I jumped up so fast and ran to the bathroom. After sitting there awhile and realizing it was not just pee that was coming out. I called for Tim. He unfortunately was not near by, he was not feeling well the night before and had bad gas so he was asleep on the couch. I called for him a few times and he did not answer. I than had to get up and open the bedroom door and yell out to him. I called for him again and he responded this time. I said "I have a favor" and he said "yeah" I than said " I think my water just broke!" I never seen Tim jump up so fast! He said " what do we need, what do we do?!" "I don't know" I said ha. At this point I was laughing.. thinking what in the heck are we doing, we are most likely having a baby today and we are not ready at all! I decided to go back and sit on the pot while Tim started packing everything we might need. He decided he should call the Hospital to ask what we should do. They asked him a few questions to make sure that it was my water that actually broke and not something else and than told him that we need to come in. Tim then asked the lady on the phone, "this might be a silly question, but are you guys open?" hahahah I was sitting on the toilet laughing so hard when he asked that. I think he must have just asked that though because it was so early and he was not all the way awake and just stressed and nervous about what was all happening. But it was still funny and I will remember forever! I called my mom because we didn't have anything ready. I didn't have any baby clothes washed and the apartment was a mess. She came over right away, and than we were on our way to the hospital. Before we got on the freeway though, I realized that we didn't have the Camera! I thought that might be a pretty good idea if we bring that if I am going to be having a baby! We turned around and grabbed the camera and were on our way!
When we arrived at the hospital, I checked in. They took me to a room where they checked to make sure that it was really the amniotic fluid that was leaking, and sure enough it was. The nurse than took me to the last available room in the hospital! Wow crazy I couldn't believe that I got the last room! lucky! The nurses started me up on petosin, because I hadn't even started labor yet, and was feeling no pain, just slight cramping. About a half hour to an hour of being on that I was starting to feel the pain. It was not at all what other people had described labor to me! I had back labor. At one point I had to use the bathroom and I sat up... I didn't feel really any pain when I was sitting leaning forward, I sat through I contraction before going to the bathroom and it felt good.?? so I asked if I coudl sit like that. The Nurses said that would be fine as long as they could get the heartbeat of the baby. Of course silly guy would not stay in a good spot for me to do that so I had to sit back and enjoy the pain! So basically from the middle of my back all the way down to the back of my knees there was pain. Of course it didn't start out that big, but by about noon, i was really feeling the pain. At 2pm I couldn't take it anymore, especially because at this pt I was still only dilated to a two! I asked for the epidural. I started crying though as soon as the nurses walked out to get the anesthesiologist because I didn't want to get it, I had planned to go natural, and I knew of all potential problems an epidural could have. Tim gave me a blessing which reassured me that I would be alright. I felt much better although I was still very nervous about the whole thing. So at 3pm the anesthesiologist finally walked in! That hour was the worst hour EVER! The doctor had also brought a student with him, which made me more nervous even though he was going to be doing any of it. I sat there clenching a pillow with my face stuffed in it trying to relax. And dont' worry of course during this whole time because I was again sitting up and leaning forward.. the contractions didnt' hurt! So annoying! After the epidural was done and a few minutes later I started to feel much much better. I was again laughing and talking to everyone. At around 5:30pm my Doctor Dr. Harward came in to discuss with me about having a c-section. After Tim and I got to talk about it, we decided that was the best option. After 13 hours of labor I was barely dilated to a 3, so it was time to get my little boy out of me.
The nurses prepped me up and the anesthesiologist gave me more to numb me up some more. They took me into the surgery room. I let my mother watch the entire thing through a window. Tim sat right next to me during the whole thing and took pictures. It was definitely an interesting experience, First ever time at the hospital and first surgery in my life. Before they started the surgery, they tested to see if I was numb enough. The anesthesiologist didn't tell me what he poked me with until after. He basically pushed a pair of scissors into me as hard as he could to see if I felt anything. Crazy! After that they began cutting away and taking out all my insides or whatever it is they do to get the baby out. When pulling him out i felt a lot of pressure and Dr. Harward's Elbow or something was digging into my rib cage.. that hurt i felt that! At one pt he was sitting on my arm ha! and Voila my sweet little Angel was born! Timothy Carter Coles. He has lots of hair and he is perfect in everyway.
He is now just over 3 months old and still under 10 pounds. I keep thinking he is getting so big! But then when I ask people who had babies a month or even 2 months after me. Their babies are all already 12 pounds or more! ha He is smiling a ton and almost laughing. He loves sitting up and facing forward so he can look around. The other day he rolled over from his Tummy to his back.. but he hasn't done it again.. I think he was just so mad that he rolled over ha. I am lucky... haven't had any blow outs yet. they have filled the entire diaper but haven't leaked out yet... either I put the diapers on really well... or his poops aren't powerful enough yet! LOL. On Tuesday morning he was so mad and angry and we couldn't figure out what was going on.. Tim decided to put in the Finding Nemo DVD... almost instintly he was silent and just watching the fish. It was so funny!
Guess I just have Skim milk! Speaking of Breastfeeding.. not going into too much detail.. But basically the past 3 months have been a real struggle.. first he was tongue tied which was causing plently of problems.. I was feeding him for an hour and a half and sometimes up to two hours before he was satisfied.. and that was and hour and half nursing and then had to give him a bottle with formula. He just was getting anything and I wasn't producing because of the whole tongue tied issue. Our pediatrician that we had for his two week appt didn't see anything wrong with his tongue being like that. But at his two month appt we switched doctors.. and he agreed and clipped it that very day. I had also gone to a lactation specialist before that a couple times and she thought I was doing great but all she could see wrong was his tongue. Glad that only took two months to finally figure out! So then I was pumping after each feeding and more.. to up the milk supply and he was doing much better for about two weeks he had straight breast milk.. Than... down the hill i went again First it was the little stubborn timothy carter latching on and off about 50 times in a 40 minute period.. and that isn't exageration (unfortunately) than came Mastitis! If you have had it well you know.. it is awful! and if you haven't had it.. well it is awful! My milk supply basically died... I was now basically where i had started again.. and I finally just BROKE or shall i say finally BURST... Called Tim at work pooring waterfalls... (tears) and said I am done! So I have been slowly stopping breastfeeding.
I understand that Breast is the best.. But sometimes it just doesn't work for all women. I have tried my best and hopefully with my other children it will work but for him it just isn't. I hope that no one will judge me for this.. I am the mom I know what is best for my child and me. I am an adult and i should let people tell me what to do and what is best. I was feed all formula and I turned out just fine.. At least I think so! We need to have a happy family.... and these past three months haven't been as happy as they should be. I started gaining weight... being so stressed.. not sure that is normal when I am already packing on an extra 30 pounds from baby weight.. ha
This past week has been so much better and I haven't had any break downs! yay! I have started going for walks outside and enjoying the wonderful sunshine.
Many people that I have spoken with and have heard a little of what I was going through have told me several times how amazed they are that I kept going as long as I did, and how proud they were of me. Also what a patient mommy I am. I am so grateful to have these people in my life. I am so grateful that formula is available. I feel good about the decision I have made and know that my baby will grow to be a strong and healthy boy! I am so grateful for my wonderful husband in helping me through this trying time.
Alrighty enough is enough.. I am glad I said I wasn't going to go into detail.. and here I went into detail.. silly me!!
LIFE is a wonderful thing that our Heavenly Father has blessed us with! Lets all be happy!
I had a goal to run a half marathon by April.. well.. that isn't going to happen.. but it will happen this year. My body just isn't ready for running yet, I hope as soon as I lose a few more pounds it will be ready. So.. maybe my body is ready for running except.. I don't enjoy it right now.. not used to having a blob of fat jiggling around while I run.. so I just don't feel comfortable right now.. so walking it is.. than there is no jiggles hahah
I recently started back to work as well , which has been tough to have to leave the baby. I am happy to say though tomorrow is my last day .. well of working everyday... that is. I will be working what is called End Of Month (EOM) where I will just work 4 days a month and pick up some shift here and there when Tim has days off.
OH! This past week we were accepted for Financial Assistance through IHC and all we had to pay was $1,166.00 to the Hospital to finish paying off me and the baby! What a blessing that was, for a Bill that was almost $20,000 to start out. So in total we probably paid about $5,000 for Me and Baby! so wonderful!
Now about Tim... he has been busy busy working really hard. He is working Gap and Nuskin. 40 hours a week at The Gap and 4 days a month at Nuskin. And at night takes care of baby. He got a promotion a few weeks ago which is great earning more, but still no benefits. :(
I will edit this later and post pictures with.
